Vita Insolitus

Do you KNOW?

2010-04-14T02:50:00.000-04:00

Do you KNOW - as in, really know? Do you feel as though you can perceive the nature of all things as far as can be envisioned using your human mind? I'd like to think I can see a good bit of truth, although I do keep in mind I don't know anything... Ultimately, no one does. To KNOW involves being as conscious as one can be. This involves taking in as much information about your surroundings as you can and reflecting upon it, over and over again. Consciousness is both a blessing and a curse, all at once. Take, for example, driving a car and knowing you are running over a good number of insects and/or other small, seemingly "unimportant" lifeforms. For many, it is not what they intend - it is not their will to do so - yet if one were turned on to this realization, they would see it is literally impossible to live your life without taking the life of other lifeforms. It is simply just the cycle of life, as cliche as that statement may be. No one can truly judge what is important and what is not, for ultimately everything feeds the collective whole, which in turn, drives the collective wheel of existence (no pun intended?). Certain things may seem more important through logical deduction and prior experience, but these things are limited to the human psyche. An argument can be made that the human brain is the most complex machine in the known universe, but what does that make the universe itself? A container of the container? It's turtles all the way down... I digress; it is also my belief that everyone is selfish, whether they know it or not. In this "argument", I will use the example of wanting world peace, for it is a common wish among many humans. Surely, world peace would be a Utopian dream-come-true, but would it ultimately not be at least somewhat selfish? It would bring about self-comfort and lack of worry, among other self-righteous qualities. Observe, reflect and re-reflect, for it is all we can do.

Oh, this life.

2010-03-27T02:31:00.000-04:00

For those interested in spirituality: may we find solace in the fact that everything is interconnected, and we are all literally divine. Me, you, the plastic bezel around your monitor, the plastic bag lining your trash cans, the leaf on the floor outside of your doorsteps, the turn signal handle in your car, the Sun, the stars and infinity beyond. That's right, we are literally a part of God, whether you picture him as the Sun, the bearded white patriarch in the clouds or a particular Hindu deity's manifestation at any given time - we are one. It's as simple as that. I am right. Pardon me for sounding snug or conceited, but it's just that I when I think about that concept, I feel so passionately connected with the Truth, it's hard to not feel like you're being flooded with divinity. Every passing day I feel like I am a part of something so complex, it literally crosses the border of what my mind can compute and enters the area of my mind that is responsible for communicating feelings of ridiculousness. No human being can fully comprehend infinity, let alone the true concept of God, which not only encompasses infinity's existence, but also happens to be responsible for the possibility AND consequence of its coming-to-be.

Do you feel me? Has your mind been in the same realms as my mine during the time you've been reading this? I hope so. You may very well be enlightened if you can grasp and connect what I am saying. You don't even have to agree with me - there are many roads to enlightenment. My particular views and opinions are a small capillary of a vast array of possible roads leading to the grand truth. Stop, observe, take it in, think, let go. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up. Wake up...

Streaming Divine Truths? 2012 + Life As I Know It...

2009-05-26T03:15:00.005-04:00

I'm getting bombarded with thoughts I consider divine truth and I wanted to share them with everyone out there. Make of it as you wish, I will just stream them on here as they come...

The coming paradigm shift in human consciousness is to mark an evolution in every aspect of humanity. Everyone has already evolved to this next level, whether or not they think they know it. I believe we can not consciously sustain that state yet. Some of us are can completely submerge themselves in the vast pool of consciousness, whereas some have just stuck their toe in. Regardless, no one can yet stay submerged permanently, but the infinite rebreather is already there - it's just going to become a part of us in the near future. We're simply lagging in terms of manifestation to that moment.

Envision, for a second, all that happens around the world at every passing moment. You can only begin to envelope your mind around such a feat before it totally collapses on itself, proving magnificently impossible. Now picture that same feat, but try to see every event as a mathematical equation. Now we're talking math that no computer will ever be able to compute, for it is indeed larger than life. If any one thing were able to fathom such a mathematical existence, it would see it as pure energy - simply something that exists and serves its only practical purpose.

Infinity is real and is a part of everything we could possibly care and not care about. You cannot avoid infinity, you cannot imagine infinity. It composes you while confirming its own existence. Infinity is a synonym for God. It is the Ouroboros concept of no beginning and no end. I've spent countless hours trying to grasp the most basic concepts of God, and occasionally, still do. I've learned to ignore the basic concepts - there are no "concepts" in God. It is a force that exists. It is the platform so basic, in which for all of everything to exist, that it denies itself of possibility, WHILE STILL BEING. It is a concept that is intangible and that one must feel in order to understand. I am not associated with any particular religion. I simply have been "blessed" enough to understand some aspects of my own, higher self and have consequently been able to peer ever-so-slightly into the window of existence. Please think about this particular paragraph... I feel like there honestly is a serious message of love and beauty in these words. I surrender to humility when saying something like that about my writing; please take it with a very fine grain of salt - one that contains the universe. :)

The portal is open and what is flowing, has a reason to flow. Everyone reading this is, in at least some level, connected to the same pool of information these very words came from. Who cares who wrote them and for what purpose. Throw those variables to the side for a second and look at the fact that you just happened to visit that place in "your future". "Your future" is, of course, my future too. In this case, it was my past, but it's still mine too. :) It's ours. Everything we do as individuals shapes and molds each other's lives DIRECTLY. As a total believer in the constant butterfly effect we call life, I can say that with a great amount of certainty as well. The interesting part is that since time is an "imaginary" state in a "real" world, everything that is to happen to humanity has already happened. Again, we're simply lagging in terms of manifestation to those divine moments of truth.

I would say a devastating majority of life's beauty comes from its complexity. If I am able to tune myself to intercept the awareness of that kind of beauty, it makes me want to cry. If anyone has ever seen Waking Life, they may have just made an association with the skit with the 2 guys talking about how every moment is a miracle. One of the guys talks about looking at the other and just being able to cry in the sheer awesomeness of his presence. I can absolutely see that state and there is not a passing moment in which that is not in the back of my mind. It is a branded philosophy I carry with me and apply to everyday tasks and chores. Keep it simple and realize that life is an impossible beauty that is - and you are part of that.

I love you all.

The Symbolic Physical Universe

2009-05-18T23:28:00.009-04:00

Here is something I've been thinking about for the past few days. I am certain it is not unique to me - but then again, what is? Those who have truly pondered the majesty of the physical universe know the true meaning of feeling helpless. The gargantuan mammoth we call space is simply too awesome for the human mind to even begin to try to fathom. Everyone has pondered, at some point, whether we are the only inhabitants of this massive cosmic real-estate. For the logical-minded, it would indeed seem silly for human beings to be the only form of "intelligent" life frequenting the galaxy, let alone the universe itself. At what point, however, does the possibility of extra-terrestrial life become irrelevant, and ultimately, futile?

For the sake of mental exploration, let's assume we knew - for a fact - that we were the only intelligent life form in the ever-expanding (or finite) universe. To me, this would bring up a very interesting scenario. In that case, who's to say the physical universe is simply a physical, symbolic representation of our collective mind, or general consciousness. Given the seemingly ridiculous size of the physical universe, every single person that has ever lived, is living, and will live at some point could have their own cluster of galaxies for themselves and there would still be too much room to spare. What if humanity, as a collective whole, creates the illusion we call the universe as a platform on which to exist in? The vast amount of space out there could simply be a buffer for the conscious evolution we are yet to undergo. Granted, if even an infinitesimal fraction of that statement were true, we would ourselves be already be beyond Gods... or are we already?

As mind-boggling as the thought of quantifying the universe is, so is the thought of our origin. No offense to those who believe otherwise, but the advent of evolution can only be true up to a certain point. From that point on, all bets are off, and the paradox is as real as we are right now. We are, quite literally, impossibilities manifest. As long as that is true (and that will always be true), anything is possible. Anything.

Here's an appropriate video to soak in...

Inter-Connectedness

2009-04-30T20:39:00.000-04:00

From January 03, 2008:

Life is very complex. That may sound like the opening sentence of a high writing – and it is. To think one can embrace all the aspects of life is to be a fool, indeed. One, however, would be wise to explore the boundaries of oneself – for humanity is certainly as adventurous as animals are in the wild. The hard part is to find what things are specifically worth seeking out. I think the answer to that lies within the feeling one should already be in tune with. One should be aware of the awareness, simply put. To be aware is to relate to the “subliminal” communication given off by planet Earth itself. One can think of all moving life covering the face of the earth as an example of the physical aspect of life – be it mammal, insect, amphibian, reptilian, etc., very down to the smallest of living organisms that feed off Earth’s plentiful bounties. As if that were not simply magnificent enough, there is the conscious connectivity that embodies a global virtual brain. If you are a synapse in this brain, you feel what the Earth feels, so to say… This is what causes certain individuals to “feel the pull”. This is what I’ve dedicated my life to studying and I constantly apply my findings in my everyday actions. We are all part of the same ether and should strive towards realizing that very fact, for it will free us! Do not let anybody or anything oppress you; nothing has the right. Escape from the misery, and step into another world.

Love and Change

2009-04-30T20:36:00.003-04:00

From a Septmber 24, 2007 spontaneous writing episode:

I can feel it coming. I sense the change that my soul has been craving, but unable to attain. I must continue to pursue the means to satisfy my physical needs, although I do not desire to do so. I always knew that I was a special person, and I truly say that with no form of self-indulgence. I knew ever since I was young that I would be part of something great. The more time passes by, the more I feel it is true. I believe we will all be a part of something that will literally change humanity in an unimaginable way. I am saddened by my cravings for materialistic things, but I believe it is a part of life. Ideally, I would like to spend the rest of my life reflecting and thinking, but I am torn between logic, love and my soul. All three are very powerful forces that divide me. I am pretty certain I will choose love and logic over soul; I hope this will not affect my ascendance into what I believe is coming. I keep thinking about the bad things I have done in my life and will continue to do until this universal time arrives. I do not see it as a weight on my back in terms of judgment, but as personal regret. I pray that my actions, though both emotionally harming, and, at times lethal, ultimately are forgiven by those entities which I have inflicted the aforementioned actions upon. I believe every action you perform in life, down to the seemingly most minimal physical movement at any given time, is charted by the cosmos themselves. There is something incredible that drives life that we can only hope one day to be a part of. I strongly believe in the change that is coming - lately I have prayed for it. I do not wish to scare anyone due to what many people may consider extreme beliefs, but I feel so confident - my soul is so sure. Everything that is happening in the world today is beautiful, as unapparent as it may be. Today's events are the cause for tomorrow's cleansing, and what a time for humanity that will be. We have the corrupt governments to thank, the Paris Hiltons to thank, the ignorant, the rich, the oil-driven, the good, the poor, and ultimately ourselves to thank. We were once a part of the scheme of things, and are now being acted in what we consider space and time. That which created us and the events that happen in every location, at any given time, is beyond the beauty that can be bestowed with words. We know absolutely nothing about our creator(s) and I am confident we are all wrong in our beliefs. We must become more conscious in order to transcend this physical world. I beg of you to try to feel the life surrounding you and within you. Yearn for truth and love from the heavens and you will slowly become to feel the change. Head for the change and you will surely be rewarded in a way nothing else in our so-called life can provide. I pray for the moment we are channeled with pure light and time itself ceases to exist - I pray for total connection with life in general and synchronization of souls. I pray to be at one with the Earth, with the celestial bodies that be, with the pulsing and ebbing of energy we cannot see or understand. I pray for eternal divine beauty and to be at one with it. I believe we can achieve it as individuals; we just need to long for it. Let your soul reach out for the dawning of a new age – try not to be afraid of death, for death is a temporary and necessary transition, and is directly related to the cleansing of our material bodies. While it is only natural to fear the unknown, I believe only love is to be missed, but I also believe a different form of love can be attained in the afterlife/second self, a love that is interchangeable with eternal ease and understanding.

Global Consciousness Project Real-Time Dot

2009-03-03T17:28:00.002-05:00

One.

2009-03-02T01:34:00.001-05:00

We are all one. We've always been and have always known, but we forgot, or meant to forget so that we would one day remember again. That day is coming, and when we remember, it's going to be infinity - forever. Everything you've ever known is made of the same thing; whether you call that "Existence", "God", "The Universe", "Matter", or anything else, it doesn't matter. Whether or not you know, want to know, or think you don't believe, it doesn't matter, because you are what's required to make the collective all. I don't mean to offend anyone who doesn't agree with me, but I swear it's impossible to prove me wrong on this! This is one thing I can say with certainty that NO ONE can disprove, ever! Your agreement/disagreement, or general neglect of the words that lie herein makes you a part of the collective whole. Everyone will wake up and remember, and the feeling will be what I deem, "meeting God". It's coming!

Is this thing on?

2009-01-05T00:54:00.000-05:00

So it appears I'm a bit late to the blogging bandwagon. Who would've thought that I, self-proclaimed web warrior - from the mystical days of Prodigy, CompuServe and AOL - would be so late to this festive corner of the Internet? Well, it's not as if I don't have the creative enzymes within me. In fact, I've been silently typing away in the privacy of my own hard drives. I've been logging the thoughts and emotions that flood to me in the wee hours of the morning.

I'm here to share my experiences; after all, they're not really my own, they're just borrowed...