Love and Change

From a Septmber 24, 2007 spontaneous writing episode:

I can feel it coming. I sense the change that my soul has been craving, but unable to attain. I must continue to pursue the means to satisfy my physical needs, although I do not desire to do so. I always knew that I was a special person, and I truly say that with no form of self-indulgence. I knew ever since I was young that I would be part of something great. The more time passes by, the more I feel it is true. I believe we will all be a part of something that will literally change humanity in an unimaginable way. I am saddened by my cravings for materialistic things, but I believe it is a part of life. Ideally, I would like to spend the rest of my life reflecting and thinking, but I am torn between logic, love and my soul. All three are very powerful forces that divide me. I am pretty certain I will choose love and logic over soul; I hope this will not affect my ascendance into what I believe is coming. I keep thinking about the bad things I have done in my life and will continue to do until this universal time arrives. I do not see it as a weight on my back in terms of judgment, but as personal regret. I pray that my actions, though both emotionally harming, and, at times lethal, ultimately are forgiven by those entities which I have inflicted the aforementioned actions upon. I believe every action you perform in life, down to the seemingly most minimal physical movement at any given time, is charted by the cosmos themselves. There is something incredible that drives life that we can only hope one day to be a part of. I strongly believe in the change that is coming - lately I have prayed for it. I do not wish to scare anyone due to what many people may consider extreme beliefs, but I feel so confident - my soul is so sure. Everything that is happening in the world today is beautiful, as unapparent as it may be. Today's events are the cause for tomorrow's cleansing, and what a time for humanity that will be. We have the corrupt governments to thank, the Paris Hiltons to thank, the ignorant, the rich, the oil-driven, the good, the poor, and ultimately ourselves to thank. We were once a part of the scheme of things, and are now being acted in what we consider space and time. That which created us and the events that happen in every location, at any given time, is beyond the beauty that can be bestowed with words. We know absolutely nothing about our creator(s) and I am confident we are all wrong in our beliefs. We must become more conscious in order to transcend this physical world. I beg of you to try to feel the life surrounding you and within you. Yearn for truth and love from the heavens and you will slowly become to feel the change. Head for the change and you will surely be rewarded in a way nothing else in our so-called life can provide. I pray for the moment we are channeled with pure light and time itself ceases to exist - I pray for total connection with life in general and synchronization of souls. I pray to be at one with the Earth, with the celestial bodies that be, with the pulsing and ebbing of energy we cannot see or understand. I pray for eternal divine beauty and to be at one with it. I believe we can achieve it as individuals; we just need to long for it. Let your soul reach out for the dawning of a new age – try not to be afraid of death, for death is a temporary and necessary transition, and is directly related to the cleansing of our material bodies. While it is only natural to fear the unknown, I believe only love is to be missed, but I also believe a different form of love can be attained in the afterlife/second self, a love that is interchangeable with eternal ease and understanding.